oy oy OY!!

Ok so it seems my ovulation days have changed. Now it looks like I am ovulating on the 13th day of my cycles NOT the 16th. lol It wasn't this hard to get pregnant when I was a stupid horny teen ager. Back to the charting board lol Thanks to a change in O-ing I don't have much to report. lol Better luck next month huh? All I can do is laugh and smile right now. *kisses*

Another Month and NO baby

Well it's been an uneventful month to say the least. Ovulation should be here between the 13th and 17th. I'm now on a baby asprin and B6. I also made myself a totally cute fertility bracelet. My bestfriend has been stressed yet again. He got a job then they put a hiring hold on the job so now he has to wait to actually start. The poor dear :( I just wish things would get better for him. I really do care about him and his happiness. Mother's Day wasnt nearly as hard as I thought it would be. I only cried once. So that's an improvement. I guess not much to update. Last month's chart was kinda "odd" I've never Oed on the 13th day of my cycle. Eh oh well. Still trying :) Off to bed now.

Over Emotional

WOW It's been a hell of a few days. Last night I laid in bed and cried. I have been doing this for the last couple of days. I was on the phone talking to a friend yesterday and started to cry. I have NO idea why I was crying. Well I do but it wasn't related to anything that was going on right then. If that makes any sense.Ok so Future Baby's Father got out of jail this morning (unpaid speeding tickets) and I literally wanted to turn a flip. I had prayed and prayed and prayed to God to please protect him and not let anything happen to him. He went in Thursday and came out Sunday unharmed and in good spirits. He also got a job. Which I hope will mean he will be less stressed about the whole baby thing. Things are looking up. I don't wanna jinx it tho.

Last month I had a "normal" 28 day cycle. I haven't had one of those in years. My chart says I ovulated on the 14th but I'm not so sure since I was sick last month and my temp was all over the place. So we've started a new cycle. I've been praying a lot lately. It's odd I've become a lot more thankful. Prayer isn't all about asking it's a lot about thanking God for what he has already given you and for the protection he has provided you thus far.

I went to church tonight with my mom and her friend. It was a comedy show. It was a lot of fun. Stand-up CAN be funny without all the cussing and stuff. It was very refreshing. I'm going to ask my friend if he would like to go to church with me on Sunday. He's not really a church goer. Truth be told neither am I anymore but I'd like to change that. I grew up in the church and think that I was around too many "church people" and not enough Christians. I want our child(ren) to be raised in church. Going to a faith based school gave me a GREAT foundation for life. I want to give my kids that.

Ok I'm crying again which means I need to stop typing and stop reflecting and head to bed.

Peace and Love

48 Hours of HELL

Well AF showed up today. Which I'm kinda happy about. That puts me closer to ovulation. YAY! I've had a hell of a 48 hours. I wonder why I got out of bed but I'm a strong person so I'll be fine. Just gotta work my ass off. I started applying for other blog jobs and will start writing for another site tomorrow (if I ever get to bed lol). It's a short entry tonight. I'm just having a kinda stressful day and my mother just doesn't seem to care. Mother's are supposed to care right?
UGH

We're ok

Ok so I'm not nearly as hurt as I was. He's having some legal issues and stuff so he's stressed and I guess didn't want to tell me. He just wanted to act like a macho man douche bag lol It wouldn't have been good anyway. Looks like I ovulated 2 days earlier than normal. So Saturday would have been too late anyway. I guess I saved some money for 2 or 3 nights at the hotel lol Back to the drawing board. I went to K-Mart today and went to the baby section to pick out something for my lil cousin and ended up crying all the way home. Horrible people can have babies .....why not me? Why not now? I can't question God.

Tomorrow I am going to try to get my Etsy store up and running. My bracelets are totally cute. :)

Out for this cycle (again)

Well I rented a nice hotel room and everything. Then I started to think about the fact that my BFF hadn't bothered to say if he went and got tested yet. So protecting myself I said well no lets not do it. Then I asked him if he had tested and he said yes I thought I told you. I have the paper work or whatever. So I said ok great then lets go ahead and go to the hotel tonight. He turns around and says no. :( It sucks bc my heart actually hurts. I did everything I was supposed to do this cycle. With each cycle my chances go down. So I will spend tonight in bed alone crying. Maybe next month. Maybe not. I really hurt inside right now.

UGH ASSHOLES!!!

OK so this is NOT a fertility post. I was looking at a nice rental home to rent for an up coming vacation with one of my good friends in June of this year. I found what i thought was the perfect house and was in our price range. I SHOULD have known something was wrong from the first email. The property owner Karin (yes I am using REAL names due to not wanting others to deal with these assholes) questioned WHY we wanted to rent the house due to there only being two of us. Since when do you need 40 people to rent a house for a week. I explained (which I don't think I should have had to) that I am allergic to gluten and my friend is basically allergic to everything else. So I need to cook daily when we vacation together. I just get very sick when I eat gluten but my friend Jeff can DIE if he comes in contact with shell fish, nuts, soy and any other number of things. So cooking is kinda a must. AGAIN I don't think I should have had to explain myself but I did trying to be kind. The email address I used to contact her is hooked to a paypal account that is used by the church musician to purchase things for church. She is over 60 years old and until not too long ago didn't have her own email address so we setup the account using mine. I told this stupid cunt that I would get my Friend's paypal info ASAP. I NEVER stated I wanted or even HAD paypal account hooked to the email address I emailed her from. So of course the dumb ass sends the invoice to the email address I emailed her from AFTER I told her I would get Jeff's paypal info to her ASAP. I detest people who can't/don't/wont follow directions. SIMPLE DIRECTIONS! If I tell you that I will get the paypal info to you ASAP that would mean wait to send the bill until AFTER you get the paypal info right? Another thing that struck me as strange was that they required you to pay BEFORE seeing a contract or anything. We just figured paying via paypal would protect us from a scam. So Jeff sends me his paypal info and I forwarded it to her. Jeff's email address is a .cc not a .com (honestly I didn't know this made a difference). This BITCH then turns around and emails me with this shit....

Inza
My husband does not feel comfortable with this. The name for Inza (last name removed) comes up as (Legal name removed) when I sent the invoice. And now you want me to send the invoice to an email address pointing toward Keeling Islands in Central Africa, what the heck? I think we need to know you guys are legitimate people. My husband feels we cannot rent to you because of all the conflicting information.
Sorry
Karin

It's only conflicting because this mindless CUNT can't follow directions. So I emailed dippy and her mind controlling husband the whois info for the domain name that Jeff owns and has owned for 13 YEARS. This twit didn't even bother to return the emails. I even sent her links to the whois searches and NOTHING. I guess people just can't admit when they are wrong and look fucking STUPID.

Their names are

Karin and Rick Dorn
(360) 990-6601

DO NOT DO BUSINESS WITH THESE ASSHOLE LOSERS!!! NO MATTER HOW GOOD THE PRICE MAY BE.