Monday, April 5, 2010

Over Emotional

WOW It's been a hell of a few days. Last night I laid in bed and cried. I have been doing this for the last couple of days. I was on the phone talking to a friend yesterday and started to cry. I have NO idea why I was crying. Well I do but it wasn't related to anything that was going on right then. If that makes any sense.Ok so Future Baby's Father got out of jail this morning (unpaid speeding tickets) and I literally wanted to turn a flip. I had prayed and prayed and prayed to God to please protect him and not let anything happen to him. He went in Thursday and came out Sunday unharmed and in good spirits. He also got a job. Which I hope will mean he will be less stressed about the whole baby thing. Things are looking up. I don't wanna jinx it tho.

Last month I had a "normal" 28 day cycle. I haven't had one of those in years. My chart says I ovulated on the 14th but I'm not so sure since I was sick last month and my temp was all over the place. So we've started a new cycle. I've been praying a lot lately. It's odd I've become a lot more thankful. Prayer isn't all about asking it's a lot about thanking God for what he has already given you and for the protection he has provided you thus far.

I went to church tonight with my mom and her friend. It was a comedy show. It was a lot of fun. Stand-up CAN be funny without all the cussing and stuff. It was very refreshing. I'm going to ask my friend if he would like to go to church with me on Sunday. He's not really a church goer. Truth be told neither am I anymore but I'd like to change that. I grew up in the church and think that I was around too many "church people" and not enough Christians. I want our child(ren) to be raised in church. Going to a faith based school gave me a GREAT foundation for life. I want to give my kids that.

Ok I'm crying again which means I need to stop typing and stop reflecting and head to bed.

Peace and Love

Saturday, April 3, 2010

48 Hours of HELL

Well AF showed up today. Which I'm kinda happy about. That puts me closer to ovulation. YAY! I've had a hell of a 48 hours. I wonder why I got out of bed but I'm a strong person so I'll be fine. Just gotta work my ass off. I started applying for other blog jobs and will start writing for another site tomorrow (if I ever get to bed lol). It's a short entry tonight. I'm just having a kinda stressful day and my mother just doesn't seem to care. Mother's are supposed to care right?