Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Time to Help Others

One of my bestfriends has a brain tumor. Her and her husband have started an organization to help to raise money and awareness for brain tumors and brain cancers. ANY donations would be wonderful http://www.walkforkate.org

AF Showed Up

Yep AF showed her ugly face. So here we are at the beginning of another cycle. Mike and I spent part of the day together today. It was great. We laughed and joked For a small moment in time I forgot how crushed I am. So it was nice. Then we laid on the couch and watched Bill Maher. I think this cycle I am just going to take my vitimins, temp and BD. No baby asprin, No musinex, no pineapple. Just the old fashion way sorta lol.

I wish I knew how to deal with my feelings of "anger" when certain types of people can pop out as many babies as they want. UGH I just don't know how or what to feel most of the time. I cry alot. I mean A LOT and it sucks.


Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I have totally LOST it

Ok so I tested ( a bit early) and got a BFN. So today I go to Wally World with my mom. I go inside to buy paper plates. I come out and walk to the car I get in and my mother is holding a puppy. In my head I'm screaming GOD THIS ISN'T FUNNY I WANTED A BABY OF THE HUMAN VARIETY!!! I literally cried when I got home. Either AF is on her way or I need to test again on Monday when AF is due.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

It's been way too long

Ok so this cycle my chart says I O-ed on the 13th day of my cycle (again). Well this time we hit the timing right on the head. We BDed twice on the 13th day. Now for the 2WW. I am supposed to test on Friday. I will be out of town so chances are I wont test until Monday. My period isn't due til the 27th or 28th. Iin my stupidity I went out and purchased 2 HPTs and took one yesterday. Of course it was negative and I was all depressed then I counted and the test is good 5 days before your missed period. It's was more than 5 days before my period. I also stupidly purchased blue dye tests. Which from my understanding aren't that great so I will have to go out and buy more tests anyway. I now have to find things to entertain me so I don't run over and pee on that damn stick ....even if it is a blue dye test lol